so, i feel really alone right now. i was on this one girl's myspace that goes to my school. and her page is covered with pics of her and her best friends. her and her best friends hanging at the beach, or by the pool, and just at home.or doing whatever together. my best friends live hundreds of miles away and i see them once a year. it just makes me really sad because i don't really have any real close friends that live here and i don't get to do that kind of stuff with the people in the world that i love the most. it's just really sad. yeah, i don' know

okay, so yesterday, i went to some family friend's house and we were talking about what was going on in lebanon. it is wacked! this shit needs to stop. i'm sorry. i know i live in the u.s. and the u.s. always backs israel but i think in this case, someone needs to step up. what israel is doing is completely wrong. they have no reason to be bombing lebanon. their excuse is that lebanon was holding two of their men prisoners. and while that is true, is is still a poor excuse. for years, lebanon and israel have ben holding each others men captive and trading them. it's a sort of ritual to them. so, the fact that they can use what they themselves also do as an excuse to bomb and basically kill off an entire country is just damn stupid. Lebanon's prime minister was on t.v. the other day, and he was crying buckets. it was actually pretty sad to see a grown man of his position crying like that. he was saying how he didn't know what to do. his country is just being completely demolished and there's nothing he can do about it. they're not a rich country or being funded by a powerful country.
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well, i just got home from my trip to the far east. it was pretty fun. definetely not the best trip i've ever been on but it was alright. I liked hong kong the most. it was so beautiful and .... modern compared to the other places we went to. bangkok was not a place that i would jump on a plane and return to. definetely not. i was really sad that it rained the entire time we were in phuket. but then it cleared up when we went to kuala lumpur. kuala lumpur was pretty nice. we saw the petronas twin towers and it was awesome. we were on top of the city and could see out for miles. we saw the batu caves while we were there and we saw like hundreds of monkeys. it was cool. and then from malaysia we went to singapore. lots of shopping. but we finally made it home after 3 weeks. yah!!!

so, one of my cousin's best friends, who i've met often and like, died today. she was 23 and had a stroke. and then she went into a coma and they had to put her on a life support machine. today, they declared her brain dead and switched off the machines. i want to talk to trisha, my cousin, but i'm afraid that i'll say the wrong the thing and make it worse for her. i really have no clue as to how i can help....if i can help.

fuck her! i hate her. i just want next school year to be over already so that she would just get the hell out of here. god!! why can't she just stay away from me?

okay, so i am totally screwed. we were assigned this book report/science fair project in december. it's due by the end of may. i am sooo screwed. i'm only on chapter 16 of the book. there's 36!!! i have only this week. oh, man. maybe i shouldn't have waited till the last minute, huh?

i am soo excited. i have only 17 more days of school left!!! no more school, no more stupid teachers, no more bad grades. i love summer!!!
okay, so i have this friend right. and i mean, i love her death, she's a really good friend. over the last week, i've been making a lot of remarks about her being my best friend. But the thing is, i don't know why i do it. i don't want a best friend. that sounds wierd, but i just in november got into a really, really, really huge fight with my best friend. i mean, i tell people i'm past her, but really i'm not. she's been my best friend for almost 6 years. so, now i'm stuck with a really good friend who thinks i think of her as my best friend. even though i don't. and if i tell her that i don't think of her as my best friend, then it might hurt her, and ruin another great friendship.
okay, so we're over that. My mom bought RENT today!! i was so happy. i've been wanting that movie for such a long time. it's great.
okay, well, i have homework, so i'm gonna go do that!

laterz